Alex Scott broke down in tears as she revealed she still suffers from terrifying flashbacks from her childhood.
The football pundit, 38, claims her father Tony was a ‘controlling, violent drunk’ who was ‘stupidly cruel’ and would frequently beat their mother.
Tony previously vehemently denied the allegations when she made the claims in her memoir How (Not) To Be Strong, released last year.
Appearing on Loose Women on Monday, an emotional Alex spoke of how she didn’t communicate with her mother about her troubled childhood until the release of the book.
‘I think that in the world I grew up in, everyone had a perception that you have to be strong and I needed to do is strip that back and show my emotions and vulnerability,’ Alex said.
In her memoir, Alex said her father beat them and made them throw their toys away which left her so traumatised that she is unable to hug her mother or brother Ronnie.
The footballer cried as she said: ‘We felt like we couldn’t do anything, and you wanted to save your mum. I thought I was better now and would be okay, but the visuals come back.
‘You’re just laying in bed hearing everything and praying your mum is going to be alive in the morning.
‘My mum is my everything and I want to give her everything. Victims think they’re cowards, but my mum isn’t a coward and she saved me and my brother.
‘We didn’t know how to communicate about it until the book. I did a lot of therapy to break generational cycles. I was ready to talk and my mum wasn’t. And she loved it and learned so much about me and how me and my brother were affected.’
Tony previously denied Alex’s allegations in a statement to MailOnline and said he couldn’t understand why she was portraying him in this way.
He cried: ‘I have no idea why she’s saying all this stuff. I was raised in a strict but loving Jamaican family and Alex should know what they are like. I taught her discipline, I did a lot to help her.
‘Perhaps she is judging me by today’s standards, I don’t know. Parents were a lot tougher back then. But I was never violent, that’s just not me. I never beat Alex or anyone else in the family or did anything like that.’
Alex then fired back after the interview as she told the BBC: ‘I almost feel angry at myself that I’m allowing him to hurt me again by those claims.’
Speaking about her coping mechanisms as a child, Alex previously said: ‘The football cage was a safe space. I felt fun, I felt free and at home I was locked in, it was an environment where it was very much controlled.
‘I wanted to love my dad so much, I was daddy’s little girl, but he had this dark side and that’s a side we saw a lot of growing up.
‘Drink helped it out come out a lot more, you could see him turn, that’s how he took it out on all of us, more so my mum.
‘From a baby I could feel it, the environment we’re in. If you step out of line you know what’s going to happen and you don’t want that to happen…
‘What my mum would go through, the terror, the helplessness that you can’t do anything, you’re just living in fear.’
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